e******t
发帖数: 339 | 2 I recognize that you are an immature, self hating Lu who was taught to hate
Asian men because we are inferior by your mother. I am not blind, I can see
that every time I try to have a conversation with my friends you try to turn
it about you by changing the topics to some past activity or inside jokes
where I'm irrelevant, or every time when I try to attend an activity with
them you try to sway them to join you at something else. I have no idea what
makes you hate Asian men so much that you even need to diminish my social
interactions with other people in the department.
I admit, you got me, I feel hurt and isolated a lot of times, because I feel
like my friends did not really trying to talk to me anymore, you made me
cranky about my loneliness, and I subconsciously took it out on some of my
friends, how does it feel, being able to bully another person, who was
already broken from the start with serious depression and anxiety and other
mental health issues, while nobody call you out because you portray yourself
as this progressive feminist who is nice to everyone else, and because "you
are a racial minority and female in a STEM field", pretending you are "
everyone's favorite Asian female student in the department"?
But I won't let you bother me emotionally anymore, I may not have a "safe
space", maybe no one will believe me when I say how I'm being socially
bullied by you, and even if they did nobody would give 2 cent at all. But I
will become a successful researcher, and the only thing, the only thing your
bullying is going to do, is for me to add "being bullied and isolated" to
the list of struggles I had to work through to achieve success.
I will be known for my success in our field of research, and when I'm
interviewed for being a successful researcher, you and those you have turned
against me will know, deep down, you are the "bullies" I will be talking
about in interviews, you can mask it all you want, but I will let the whole
world know of my struggle and while they will not know your names, you will
know deep down, that whenever people curse at the people who made "
killerofpain" suffered in graduate school, they are cursing at you.
So go ahead, bully me some more, just know that the more you do, you will
only be giving me more fuel and motivation to study harder. Because unlike
you, I don't need a scholarship for people who play the victims and actually
work as a TA AND study at the same time, unlike you, I will be able to say
proudly that I earned my success. |
